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Sunday, June 7, 2020

New Paintings





"Play" oil on canvas, 50 cm x 50 cm

"Distortion" oil on canvas, 50 cm x 50 cm
"Middle Line" oil on canvas, 50 cm x 50 cm

"Grow" oil on canvas, 51 cm x 51 cm





Painting these works helped me to sift and to reflect on childhood memories and connections.
The pink patterned Royal Doulton set was my mother's good china, and expressed so much her ideals of English country living. Unfortunately, she was never able to a live country life as she was beset with depression and spent most of her time in bed for the last 30 years and before that I remember her crying a lot and telling me things that were inappropriate for my young ears to hear. Funnily enough, the coffee pots had lids, but they were all the wrong size and didn't fit the pots. I threw out the lids with a sense of remembrance of childhood frustration that I often used to feel around my mother.

The other cups of a modern design, express me in a sense, in comparison with my mother. I was able to function in the world in a way that she was unable to do. I had different values, certainly a much freer life than her youth, which she felt deeply. I didn't fuss about much but just got on with things, I observed more and kept to myself. I was free and innocent, unaware of my mother's continual projections on to me. Understanding much more about the situation now, has led me to feel peace and an inner reconciliation in me.